Saturday, October 12, 2013

Me Myself and I // 50 questions

I've been alive for about forty  two years now and in those amazing years I have learned a lot especially about myself. I grew up thinking and believing that I am not special, I am not worth anything and so many negative thoughts were lingering in my mind. Positive thinking was never a part of my vocabulary back then.


As an adult I still struggle with low self esteem and I still learning and discovering who I am as an individual. When I discovered blogspot (way back in 2005) I’ve learned to document my life and learned about myself in the process. One of the things I love to write about is lists and Q&A style. I was intrigue when I read about 50 good questions to ask yourself and others. These are definitely questions worth exploring.

So this lovely Saturday morning I would love to answered these questions about myself

1. What are your nicknames? What do you prefer to be called?

I don't really like nicknames. I like people to call me by name. My friends call me Izah or Hanizah or Siti is totally fine.

2. What books on your shelf are begging to be read?

Getting Things done by David Allen and Under the Dome by Stephen King

3. How often do you doodle? What do your doodles look like?

I like to doodle even though I am not good at it. I mostly would doodle in my notebook especially during meeting and lengthy discussion. I mostly doodle the same thing - flower, heart , geometric shape and some random lines all over the page

4. What do you do if you can’t sleep at night? Do you count sheep? Toss and Turn? Try to get up and do something productive?

I don't usually have this problem unless I have a lot on my mind that required my attention or when I was in labour. Mostly when it did happened I can't fall asleep, I usual listen to a few verses of quran, drink warm water and take a deep breath. I try to free my mind and focus on beautiful things that makes me happy.

5. How many days could you last in solitary confinement? How would you do it?

May be a week as long as I have internet connection and iphone with me or a good book. After a week I might feel depress.

6. Do you save old greeting cards and letters? Throw them away?

I used to throw them away. Now that I have a scanner and Evernote, I might keep some of them in my Evernote

7. Who is the biggest pack rat you know?


8. When making an entrance in to a party, do you make your presence known? Do you slip in and look for someone you know? Do you sneak in quietly and find a safe spot to roost?

Slip in and find someone I know. I don't like crowd and I don't like strangers

9. What is your strongest sense? If you had to give one up, which would it be?

I am a visual person. I learn things better if I can see them and visualize them. I won't give up any. I love all my senses.

10. How many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror?

Four times

11. What is the strangest thing you believed as a child?

You have to work in an office to be successful. Now I know better. There are many ways to generate income other than working from 8 to 5pm, in an office

12. What is one guilty pleasure you enjoy too much to give up?


13. Who performs the most random acts of kindness out of everyone you know?

My daughter

14. How often do you read the newspaper? Which paper? Which sections?

I don't read newspaper. I just can't stomach all the bad news out there. 

15. Which animals scare you most? Why?

Snake. The thought of it makes me want to run. 

16. Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head-on?

Avoid conflict if I can help it.

17. What was the most recent compliment you’ve received and savoured?

When I see my 17 months old son, smile and excited to see me. I just love the thought that he recognized me as his mother. (I think.. or maybe he sees me as his food... hehehe)

18. What is something about yourself that you hope will change, but probably never will?

Public speaking.

19. Are you a creature of habit? Explain.

Yes I am. I like routine and structure. I fall apart if I my routine suddenly changed without warning

20. Are you high maintenance? Explain.

High maintenance. I love quality and beautiful things in my daily life. Sometimes those things aren't cheap.

21. When was the last time you really pushed yourself to your physical limits?

Giving birth to my first born. I had a fever and I still had to endure 20 hours of labour and pushing my baby out. After that I was totally exhausted and couldn't get out of bed.

22. Do you have a whole lot of acquaintances or just a few very close friends? Why?

Very few close friends. I don't trust easily and I just can't handle crowd. I am more comfortable with just a few close friends.

23. Are you more inclined to “build your own empire” or unleash the potential of others?

Unleashed the potential of others. I love to inspire people to be their best.

24. What’s a strange occurrence you’ve experienced but have never (or rarely) shared with anyone?

I keep having this same dream for more than twenty years. It's very strange. The player is the same but the out come is almost the same. I've never really talk about because it might be interpret differently

25. What do you think about more than anything else?

What my life would be like if I make a different choice back in high school. I kept dreaming about it from time to time. I thought I've put it behind me. Apparently not.

26. What’s something that amazes you?

Watching how easy a baby or child learn. Every thing around him is a wonderland and also opportunity to learn something new. I wish I could have that kind of wonder and thirst for knowledge

27. Do you prefer that people shoot straight with you or temper their words? Why?

Temper their words. My feelings is very fragile and I am struggling with low self esteem. Bad words can easily hurt me like a knife can

28. Where’s your favourite place to take an out-of-town guest?

I would probably take them to visit Putrajaya, took some photos around the area and have dinner or lunch at Taman Warisan

29. What’s one thing you’d rather pay someone to do than do yourself? Why?

Paint the house. I love to paint but it took me a long period of time to complete them. Hired some one to do it is so much faster

30. Do you have a catchphrase?

Not really, maybe "Oh boy, I did it again" ( I think??? hemmm)

31. What’s your reaction towards people who are outspoken about their beliefs? What conditions cause you to dislike or, conversely, enjoy talking with them?

I've always like to learn about other people culture and beliefs. I would not strongly like or dislike them (I'll disagree with them in silence and never said anything out loud) especially when it comes to political beliefs. 

32. How and where do you prefer to study?

Usually in my room, in the middle of the night with music playing in the background

33. What position do you sleep in?

On my right side

34. What’s your all-time favourite town or city? Why?

Batu Pahat Johor. Other than it's the town where I grew up it's a small town but it has almost everything, great mall, cinema with new movies playing and not too crowded. I am thinking of spending my retire years there.

35. What are the top three qualities that draw you to someone new?

Having something in common to talk about, warm and kind

36. How has your birth order/characteristics of siblings affected you?

I am always the responsible one. Always follow the rules.

37. If you could eliminate one weakness or limitation in your life, what would it be?

Not brave enough to follow my dream

38. If you could restore one broken relationship, which would it be?


39. If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to?

Sara or Hannah. I just love that name. Simple and Feminine.

40. Do you believe ignorance is bliss? Why or why not?

Unfortunately I do believe that ignorance is a bliss. I wish I never knew about what he did.

41. What do you consider unforgivable?

Betrayal by the person you love the most

42. Have you forgiven yourself for past personal failures? Why or why not?

It's very hard to forgive yourself. I am getting there. Trying very hard to forgive myself.

43. How difficult is it for you to forgive someone who refuses to apologize?

It's easy after you learn that forgiveness is for you not for other people

44.Do you hold any convictions that you would be willing to die for?

I have but I will not say it here

45. To what extent do you trust people? Explain.

I don't trust people easily especially when it comes to my heart and feelings. I do trust them to do their job. So I am not distrustful when it comes to doing your job

46. In what area of your life are you immature?

When my feelings were hurt by a person closest to me. I just can't get passed the hurt. It's hard to be rational when you have been betrayed

47. What was the best news you ever received?

The day I found out I was pregnant -- all four times.

48. How difficult is it for you to be honest, even when your words may be hurtful or unpopular?

I like honesty. I try to tell the truth as much as possible. I might rewords some of the hurtful things because I believe in positive words and positive thinking

49. When did you immediately click with someone you just met? Why? What was the long term result? Conversely, are you close with anyone now that you really disliked at first?

I have never immediately click with someone I just me unless we have something in common to talk about especially photography and scrapbook. 

50. When do you find yourself singing?

In my car driving to work. It's the only time when I am alone and no one is watching or judging me

Friday, October 11, 2013

Friday Finds // October Eleven

Hi everyone! It's Friday again. This month sure does more faster. I am on Friday Finds again. Somehow it felts just like yesterday. Anyway, I had such a fun and informative week that I would love share with you. Learning and discovering new things is so much fun.
Here are my lists for this week:

#1. I am in a quest to a flat tummy for about a week now. Exercise alone doesn't help reducing the bloating.

#2. I heard so many great reviews of Michael Todd Skin care line. I am wondering if I can find them here in Malaysia.
#3. All the beauty channel I've subscribed to is doing September favorites. I just love watching videos like this, this and this. This is how I learn about beauty products worth checking out.

#4. Superstitious by Libby Pritchett

#5. I just love this beautiful and colorful kit from traci reed and erica zane - Sweetiekins

And making a layout like this .. so pretty

#6. I need to print my photos but somehow I find it very hard to pick which one to print. I love the idea of organizing and choosing the photos you want to print by month and year. And when everything is organize you can just send them to print with your selphy at one sitting or bring them to your local photo printer and print them in bulk.

#7. Sometimes when I am having trouble with daily photo challenge I've always refer to blog like this. And sometimes I also made my own lists of ideas a head of time for a month. I find out documenting and capturing your life in photos is much more easier especially when you can do it with your phone.

#8. I have been doing Focus T25 for awhile now and I kind of miss doing Jillian Killer Abs Workout. I might do Workout 2 this weekend to mix things up. It's good idea to surprise your body once in awhile so that you would not be bored.

Have a fun and creative weekend everyone!

Thursday, October 10, 2013

5 tips to help you be more productive

Achieving Work Life Balance has been one of the agenda at my work place. We have been so busy focusing on doing our job 24/7 that some of us forgot to have a life.

I always felt stress out when my life is out of balance. Without realizing it, my mind, my body and my soul are giving me signs all over to demand that I pause, take a deep breath and look at my life in general.

When that happened I usually felt very sick, got pounding headache and have trouble sleeping at night. Over the years, I’ve learned to fine the work life balance so that I can be more productive in what ever I do.


Tip #1: Make a workout or exercise an important agenda of the day

Over the years, I found out that doing a regular exercise daily really helps lift up my mood and energize me through out the day. Doing something good for your body does gives you the satisfaction that you are doing something good for your body.

Tip #2: Make a daily to do list no matter how routine or trivia the tasks are

I found out that the moment I put down all the things I need to do either personal or for work that I am responsible for in a form of to do list, some how it’s magically clear up my mind from thinking about it all the time. Besides checking things off from your lists is very satisfying

Tip #3: Turn off  email notification on  pc or iphone

I realized that having my email notification on either on my pc or my iphone is very distracting. I tend to stop what I was doing and immediately  check that email regardless the nature of the email. And than I totally forgot about what I was doing.

So I decided to check my email early in the morning and in the afternoon and I would allocate one hour in the afternoon to response to any urgent matters that need my attention.

Tip #4: Be very selective about what you put inside your body

Eating unhealthy food can contribute to your overall fitness level and competency. I realized that during morning meeting when I ate “nasi lemak” I tend to be sleepy and can’t focus. So I’ve stop myself from eating food that makes me sleepy by taking my own breakfast that energize me before going to meetings.

Tip #5: Learn a tool or tools that can enhance your life

I am a tech savvy. I just got to try all the new apps and the new gadgets in the market. But when I’ve found tools that work really well with my life style I am totally hooked. The tools that have really transformed and helped me be more productive in every aspect of my life are iphone and Evernote. Having these two tools with me all the time really free up my mind from remembering things. I kept most of my life in Evernote [work and personal], I throw in or capture ideas in Evernote and even keept emails that I want to refer back into Evernote. These gives me a peace of mind and I can sleep better at night.

The trick with tools and technology is you just have to find a workflow that works for your life style.

There you have it five simple tips to help you be more productive either at work or at home. Life is too short to be working all the time. Other aspect of your life need attention too.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

My wish list

I was browsing my old notebook and journal and I found this. My wish list back in 2003 -- 23 August 2003 to be exact. (it was ten years ago)

Good to know that I've been putting losing weight on my wish list since forever. It's one issu I've been struggling with since like forever.
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WW: 5 things I am craving right now

#1. Sony Nex-5
#2. iphone 5s
#3. Macbook Pro
#4. Smash book
#5. Resilience Lift Day and Night Cream from Estee Lauder

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Focus T25 Gamma Week Two Review

I already finished with Focus T25 Gamma Week Two. I did not see my weight decreased. Weight lifting makes you hungry. I need to be aware of that.t25-gamma Current weight: 57kg

My Review and Tips

  • I am still having problem completing Pyramid. This workout is tough when you focus and really work the muscle
  • I have already used 8 pound weights this week
  • I need to increase my water in take. 3 litter a day might not be enough
  • I still don’t like Speed 3.0. A lot of floor workout make it harder to focus. So many activities to remember and focus on. Hopefully by week 3 I will get the hang of it. I still hate the music
  • I am happy that finally this week I can fit into my pre pregnancy clothes after having trouble to zip up
  • If I have to choose I love Extreme Circuit best compare to the other.
  • I am thinking of increasing my cardio workout to two times this week. I really need more cardio

I am not really looking forward to week 3 just because I have two Pyramid workout schedule for this week. It is not one of favourite just because it is tough.

I have less then two weeks with this program. I might take a break from doing any program for two or three weeks. I plan to do some random workout DVD from my collection. After that I might jump into Insanity program. We will see how I progress.

Monday, October 7, 2013

#currentlylist // October Seven

It's the first Monday of October. My work and personal schedule is basically full for this month. I am thinking of making a drastic change that is going to impact the rest of my life. It’s not something I take lightly but somehow it seems like it’s the next step I have to take if I want a different and meaningful life.


This is my list for today
watching: Mistresses ( I love Alysa Milano)
reading: nothing at the moment
listening: to the sound of my son laughing at the other room
making: a mental checklists of things to finished up before the end of the year
feeling: anxious
planning: my one month editorial blog posts
loving: MAC foundation
weight: I did not weight myself this week.

Come and join the fun

Curious what my lists look like last week?
Check it here

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Update on my 30 day of selfie

Earlier this month I decided to take a 30 day self portrait challenge as suggested in A Beautiful Mess book. I did embarked on this project some time in August. Some how it got done half way. So this month I decided to pursue this challenge again.

So here are six photos of my selfie taken for the last six days. I used only iphone 5, Camera + , Snapseed and Phonto app.

#selfie day 1

Every morning I have to drive for work. Before that I take a role of a driver and drive my daughter to school and my youngest to daycare. I just have to get out of the house almost at the same time every day just to make sure that I can reach my office in time. (I really hate punch card! I think in 21st century punch card is so unreal when you are expected to work almost all the time). So I do need a good and reliable car as a mode to transportation. Even though I hate driving, I still can appreciate a good and high quality car. Love my car.

Selfie day 2It's Wednesday morning and it's the second day of October. To tell the truth I thought today is Thursday. I just can't wait for weekend to come. I just want to stay at home, play with Hanif and create art. Life should be simple and drama free. That's my goal till the end of the year.  Day 3

Taking a photo of your reflection is a little bit challenging for me when I used only my iphone. (this makes me crave iphone5s which can take great photos in low light situation). Not enough light and a lot of noise are the two things I have to except with this photo.

Day 4

It's the end of the week. Life is so amazing lately and slowly getting back to normal. Some thing to note about this shoes, I am loving this shoes. It's so comfortable and easy on my feet. I love it.

Day 5

Originally I wanted to go to ikea but somehow we ended up at Alamada. Outing with this little guy is a challenge now. He walks around the mall and easily distracted with things especially when he can play with them. 

My workout essential

I have been workout for as long as I can remember. Life is so much better when you move around and exercise. Currently these are my daily tools I use for working out. I might mix and match them for variety purposes but I did them always.

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