Tuesday, August 22, 2017

The longest year ever!

This year has been such a long year for me. I have never felt like the days move slower before. Is it just me or something is up with the universe. Does anyone feel that way too? I wonder.

I felt like the things that happened in January seems like a long time ago. Like a  a distant memory for me, the time when I though everything was okay. And then Bamb! Just like that my whole world collapse and changed instantly. I felt like I have been living a completely different lives in less than seven months timeframe.


Here are some random stuffs that shook my world to the core

- I used to enjoy hiking and camping as an activity that I can do with my loves one. Now that seems like a distant memory. I might sell my hiking and camping equipment in the near future because I don't think I will ever do that activity ever again!

- My father has to move out from our home this month. I no longer has a place that I can call home at my hometown. The house the we grew up in is no longer available to us. I loose the only place where I feel closer to my dead mother.

- My immediate boss decided to retire way before his time. When the day came I felt kinda sad because I like working with him. The way he look at the world is so different and sometimes pretty amazing. I am not sure who my new immediate boss will be like. I am still waiting.

- We as a family finally have the opportunity to make a plan to travel together as a one big happy family. I am so looking forward to our trip later this year

- My colleague and friend is going away to further her studies and will be working under me anymore. I felt sad because I am going to loose someone I could trust as a friend and as a coworker. Hopefully our friendship will remains.

- My whole world is crumbling at the same time and I am doing the best I can to keep it together. I might loose everything I hold dear but I still have to go through it. It has to be done in order for me to move forward. It feels such a long time ago when my family were still together and we were happy. Now everything is falling apart.

- Waiting for the next Apple event seems like forever. So many beautiful things are made in technology world and I so glad that I stick to Apple because of it's simplicity. Oh I also bought my first Macbook Pro ever this year. I feel like I am living a dream. I just love the new keyboard. And now there's a lot of rumours for iPhone 8 and I am so nervous that the price is going to be expensive and I still buy it.

- SEA Game 2017 is happening right now and Malaysia is a host. So some of my team member join to volunteer  for the event and they will not be at the office for more than two weeks

- The General Election rumours has been lingering for awhile now and nothing seems to be happening at the moment

- There seems to be a lot of speculation and rumours about centralisation of IT personnel in the government but somehow there are still no clear direction about our scheme in the near future. Is it happening or not seems to be the question people are asking

- I totally stop doing Project 365 and project life pages since July. I just can't bring myself to document the most horrible thing that has happened to me again. I just have to kept those feelings private at the moment. I really missed doing scrapbook project. At the moment DayOne app and 5 minute journal has become my best friend

- I finally have the budget and the opportunity to install laminated floor in my house. Things seems to look pretty different at the moment.

Wow! I can't believed all of these happened and are happening in 2017. I am hoping and praying that the next few months will be a great month for me. Things might get though in a few weeks but I have to believe that I am strong enough to face it. May Allah help me in my journey.

2017 please be good to me for the rest of the year

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Life is like water


I cannot believe that the life that I know and love is over. It's not easy to pick up the pieces and build a new life. Nothing is ever permanent in this world. You need to adapt to whatever life throw at you. Be more like water. Easily adapt to whatever situation without losing yourself.

Now that I have a chance to start all over again, I am not going to waste it. There are so many things I wanted to do that I did not have a chance to do it. Yeah it is scary out there. A lot has changed and competition is fierce. With the birth of internet and social media now there are so many things that you can do to pursue your dream. Now is also the time for me to get to know myself again. I have been someone's wife for so long and it's hard to see myself as me. It is also scary when you think about it. Who am I really? 

My plan for the next few months is to get to know myself again. Discover what it mean to me. What makes me happy, what are the things that I am good at, what makes me unique and special. I discovered 5 minute journal last week and I am so excited to try this method of journaling.  I think this is a good start for me to practice on a daily basis. To appreciate life and not take the little things for granted. I have to retrain my brain and myself to see the amazing thing in my life even though I might not be able to see it right away. I would love to invite positivity into my life.

I am going to live intentionally by ..
1. Do 5 minute journal daily
2. Recite Quran twice daily
3. Exercise more without fail
4. Take a deep breath and be thankful
5. Spend more time creatively like art journal or fauxbonichi
6. Take one photo a day that I am thankful for
7. Pamper myself at least once a month
8. Sort and Organise all of unwanted stuffs in the house. Aim for minimalism
9. Read books for pleasure
10. Learn new skills and discover new tech to help with managing my life

Every time the pain hit me, all I have to do is take a deep breath and repeat to myself that I am going to be okay. Pain is temporary and it will go away. Focus on a big picture and Insya Allah, Allah will help and guide me to the right path. I truly believe that. Life is like water, it will adjust to what ever chances that you make. 

Friday, August 11, 2017

Love yourself // #thursday3 on Friday (10.08.2017)

It has been a long time since the last time I play #thursday3 challenge. I wanted to do this challenge yesterday but somehow that did not happened. So many things suddenly happened and I wanted to scream. Luckily people around me are so supportive and they make me feel like the problem I am facing not that big a deal in a bigger scheme of things. 

I really need this challenge to feel good about myself. I matter . I am unique , I am creative and I have Allah on my side.





1. I am currently rereading Getting Things Done by David Allan. My goal this month is to improve my productivity and organizational skill.  

2. Alhamdulillah I have managed to keep myself together even though I almost fall apart again. I need a reminder that what ever happened it's for the best. Maybe this is the push I needed to move forward and finally be where I am suppose to be.

3. I am currently studying Trello and how to make a beautiful dashboard. I really like the visual style of project management on Trello. I hope that this tool can help me manage current project and help me plan future project.

Think about it this way…If you take one picture and write down three facts each week — at the end of the year you’ll have more than 50 photos of yourself and 150 facts about what life has been like. It would make such an epic All About Me book — and most of the work is already done." - rukristin.com 
Untitled love-your-summer-selfie

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

5 things Digital Planner

I have been into planner since 2015. I was so obsessed with all things planner. I bought so many planners, pens, color pencils, stickers, washi tapes and many more like crazy. As always all things crazy really got out of control in no time. I was also into journals and bullet journals and I can't seem to stop trying to find the planner peace. 

This year I decided to keep things simpler and I only do my planning digitally including writing on my journal. I can be more productive and at the same I can control the paper mess in my home.

What changed? - iPad Pro, Apple Pencil, GoodNotes app and iPlanner from digitallyspeaking.net.

5 things Digital Planner

Here are five things why I adopt a digital lifestyle with Digital Planner

1. I have everything in one place - I used to have a home planner, work planner, project planner, journal and they live at different places. Carry all of them on the go is a hassle. Now I only carry my iPad and I have all of my planners in one place.

2. No more mess - I have stop hunting for perfect stickers and I have stop printing stickers. All the decoration stuffs that I need are available on google. Any text, any images I can find and add them to iPlanner. It so easy and convenient. I still can cut and paste stuffs but everything was done digitally. No more physical mess.

3. Unlimited Space - I can have as many planner as I want and as many note papers as I like. There is no limited. I am finally free of no enough space anxiety. Now I can use my planner anywhere and any time without have to worry about running out of space. There's always more space.

4. Adaptable to my needs - I can basically try any method of planning and journaling on my Digital Planner without have to waste money buying and trying different planners. I can adjust or setup my planner as often as I like. Editing, deleting and moving things around is so easy.

5. Work well with others - I usually do my setup and planning on Sunday on my iPlanner. Then I add all of time sensitive tasks on my Google Calendar and all of my to dos on todoist. iPlanner might work like a tradition paper but it lives on my iPad and it is so easy to transfer all my notes and tasks to Google Calendar and Todoist. 

Daily Planner

There are so many beautiful tools out there for productivity and planning but I still prefer writing on my iPlanner. It feels good to write things down and it helps a lot with remembering thing.

I think right now the Digital Planning community is growing and so many people are trying out this new way of writing things down.

Here are a few facebook group you can join

- iPlanner Digital Planning
- All Digital Planner
- Digital Planners and Journal Worldwide

I am so excited with the blooming of digital planner in planner community. It's an alternative way to planning and merge the traditional way and a new way of doing things. It's fun, it's cheap and it's a smart way to memory keeping. 

I just hope that electricity,internet, wifi and cloud storage will be available to us for many years to come.... hehehe...

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Mom I missed you !!

I promised myself that I don't want to cry. I promised myself that I am going to be strong for my kids. I promised myself that a new adventure awaits. And I promised myself that I am happy.

And then I saw this entry on my DayOne app and it totally broke me. That was the last time I wished my mother "Happy Birthday". It was her 70th birthday. I cried and cried and cried. I missed her so much and I don't know how I am going to face this challenge on my own. I know I can do it but I still need my mother. There's a hole in my heart that has not been filled. No matter how old you get you always need your mother.

Happy Birthday mom

In a way I am glad that she is not around to witness her only daughter got hurt again and again and again. She will be devastated. 

Mom, the world right now has become more dangerous than ever. People you trust with your life will turn on you in an instant. It is true that nothing is permanent but that does not make it any easier when you lost it. 


Al Fatihah to  Zaliha binti Hashim. May Allah protect you always.
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